I’m glad your writing helps a little. As a reader I have to say it’s a privilege to be given a window into these difficult times.

People really don’t know how to deal with serious illness, so I’m not surprised to hear the reaction of some of your friends. It’s daft really, illness and death happens to a lot of people every single day yet it’s still a subject that many back away from and would rather bury away somewhere.

Anyway, here’s wishing you and Anja many more moments of joy in amongst the sadness! I’ll be thinking of you both.

‘If ever you need to talk, rant, rave or whatever…’
I guess the entries on this site about Anja’s cancer, help me a bit. I was reluctant at first to share the details, but now I view it as a journal and hope that I can look back at it in the future and cope with reading it again.

Your words do have meaning and I appreciate them greatly. Being a self-confessed hermit for 99% of my life, now is probably the first time ever, that I am finding I need to talk with others. Keeping it all inside simply hurts too much.

Anja and I know the reality of what lays ahead – our aim at this point is to enjoy every single moment.

It’s weird too, but I am finding the friendship of those online is, in many ways, ‘stronger’ than those we know in our ‘real’ life. It seems that many people do not know how to cope with news like this, so they simply keep away. I can understand it, but wish this was not so..

So you, Rayne, and everyone else who has been in touch with me via emails, chat, and however else we have communicated, need to know that I really appreciate your willingness to say something – ‘anything’. It does help us to cope!

I seem to have lost touch with you both over the last year or so. You moved domains and I didn’t realise, it’s only your twitter request James that led me back here.

And then I see this terrible news that Anja has cancer. I’m so very very sorry to hear that, I can’t imagine what you both must be going through. I’ve come to know a tiny piece of you both over the years through your blogging and emails etc. and realise the rarity of the love you share. This must be so devastating for you both. It’s hard to express anything adequately at times like this, but my heart goes out to you, it truly does.

If ever you need to talk, rant, rave or whatever, you have my email. Please do use it if either of you feel the need. Not sure what good I can do, but if I can I’m more than willing.

Words…they do seem ridiculous right now, but I hope I’ve expressed myself without being too clumsy or insensitive.